I don't post here much. I don't get the dopamine hit of instant engagement or something.

I'm tired. I'm old. I'm broken. I feel like my life is a prison sentence and nothing good will ever happen.

I'm starting to be ok with that. I'll just let myself live until I don't. No pleasure. Anhedonia took that.

I'm just here. I will keep doing my best to function until the lights go out.

It's weird and it's sad and this is all I will ever get.