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I did not expect to tense up with such shame & stress from writing a thread this morning.
I've been finding so much joy lately in talking with you all & sharing things I've learned.
But it's easier when I am talking to you to speak with abundant grace, love, & compassion. It is not quite so easy for me to speak to & about myself that way.
My whole body is filled with tension. I just hit a deep vein of trauma, & oh there is a lot of ore to be mined.
Still, I am finding I *can* trust myself. My greatest fear, fueled by the shame & trauma, is that I will fail to show up for people when they really need me.
It terrifies me.
But I can trust myself.
How do I know I can trust myself? Because today I took the first steps to try to find local folks to get connected to. And I can trust myself to follow through. Why? Because I know how important this is for me, so "it's hard" isn't going to stop me & because *this time* I will give myself grace.
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Still, I am finding I *can* trust myself. My greatest fear, fueled by the shame & trauma, is that I will fail to show up for people when they really need me.
It terrifies me.
But I can trust myself.
How do I know I can trust myself? Because today I took the first steps to try to find local folks to get connected to. And I can trust myself to follow through. Why? Because I know how important this is for me, so "it's hard" isn't going to stop me & because *this time* I will give myself grace.
And yeah, that's another thing: sometimes when I'm experiencing shame & stress, I end up in serious physical pain. My shoulders & back seize up. I'm working on getting better at dealing with that. Breathing helps. Stretching helps. Taking a hot shower really helps.
But you can imagine how sometimes this causes me difficulty with doing certain tasks.
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